Update again :)

Hahahaha...

Actually there's really nth to laugh about.

My prelim results sucks.

Haiz although never fail but yea...

My sciences drop like crazy... I cried in bio lesson...

My bio dropped!!!! Although i passed... Even Celia also depressed like me...

Felt like cutting it... But its not goin to be worth it.

But somehow, when at the vice & Principal's lecture...

I almost wif my fingernails...

Reality is harsh...

N matter how much i improve its never gd...

My sci, humanities, language, maths...

I really flunked them.

Yea, now goin through a depression state...

No matter how much i smile.. laugh.. smth else.

I feel damn depressed...

No motivation, no nth...

Its just me & my thoughts..

But despite tat. Im never goin to giv up.

My aim... To go to Singapore poly's biomedical course wif L1R4 of 8...

Die... die must go for it!

& yea just found out smth...

Its never gd to assume... But cos of it, I don think i should confront it anymore.

Assuming others makes u guilty & hurtful but ppl assuming u...

Tat hurts... A lot...

Its over until someone or smth steps out to be confronted & of cos its not me.

I stand by my decisions when Im rite n tis time is damn rite...

Being disappointed is a different matter.

In tis case... Its a matter of judgement, forgiveness and... sometimes the best thing is ignorance is bliss.

"Goodbye..."

Seems like a gd word for tis. Isn't it?

Drip, drip, drip...

hi blog~
Its a freaking long time since i posted anything xp
But ok now Im bac! (I will be updating again after o lvl which is around 2 months)
OK!
First to say... YEA! I HAV FINALLY PASSED MY CHI FOR THE PAST 2 YRS!
N i passed my ABRSM exams too!!!!
Although i only got a feaking pass for it... ( Tat's wat u get for wearin jeans to play a guitar... It keeps sliding off!!! ><)
N yea of cos i cried for my chi. I was hoping for a B4 IS TAT SO HARD TO GET!
I GOT C5!!!
N yea!! My oral got merit XD
Thanks to all of my friends who comforted me when i cried.
I love u guys!
Best Friends!!! <3
N YEA LOLS my o lvl EL oral was ok...
I guess..
N for once thx, i have let go of u...
I would always remember u but i'll try my best to erase them :)
Life is hard but im going to strive forward!
GO GO PRELIMS!!!!
JY my friends :)
I miss band a lot...
I miss playing trombone enormously!!
I miss it!!!
So much...
Its like a heartbreaking ache tat cannot be cured.
Don worry I'll be bac~
Trombone!! xp

Stress...
Stress...
HAIZ!
Life isnt gonna be easy from now on but its gonna be worth it.
XD
:(
JY!
N IM SO SCREWED FOR CHI ORAL & GUITAR EXAMS.
Nxt month take bac results...
NO!!!!

Stressed out...
Tats all i can say of my life starting from term 3...
Going crazy seems to be quite inevitable...
Y all major things r happening at July??
Guitar exam... O lvl chi... Weekly tests... Writing testimonial...
ETC!
Wth...
But there's one gd news is tat im proud of howjin.
I don regret putting him on 1st trombone xp
He's trying his best.
N tat keeps on trying!
His playing has improved especially in monmouth overture :)
I feel very touched!!!
Tears comin to my eyes now.
His attitude was way better than my in sec 2...
I let depression overcome me... But he didnt let his.
For tat im really proud of him.
N i dont regret havin a junior like him n also i dont regret placing him in 1st trombone. XD
A life lesson learned...
never give up even during depression!

Damn i felt jealous when i saw huayi's band camp photos...
Y cant mayflower hav one...
We hav not been havin it since last yr's March -.-
(Tats a freakin long time ago...)
Nice rite...
WTH!
N miss mok wanted to do a band chalet~
But when???!!!
End of the yr can arh but its a freakin long time...
Haiz i wanted to do smth together wif all the sec 4 seniors plus the sec 5s too... Before i step down ><
I miss the syf days!!!! (Excluding the bad n crying times)
Wth... I can't believe until now... Im the 1st person to cry after syf -.-'''

Haiz now im emo-ing.
I feel tat tis June holiday has not being meaningful at all...
I didnt study hard at all...
I didnt study my his n ss... except for globalisation... terrorism... Venice...
ZZZ...
Geog isnt goin into my head at all...
Bio n chem n partially e maths got study...
Lols.
N i think im kidding myself wif him...
I think i no longer already...
Since i really find no feelings when i see him or hear his voice... Hahas maybe.

Lols, im studying tis few days for theory work. N it seems finally i memorised mitosis process already.
Meiosis is a different story...
Today i shall study ss...
Anyways lets not elaborate anymore on tat, i hav a feeling tat ppl will start getting even more depressed... CHEER UP PPL!
Come on determination and motivation can't come out in just one day!
U must do smth to earn it... Moreover, u must work hard for it!!
xo
Hey! Im goin to enjoy myself at the GSS!
The great Singapore sale!
Tis is goin to cure my now throbbing headache xp