Hi.

A few days ago, I went out happily shopping with Ch'ng Yi and Yixuan at Orchard.

P.S. Don't dare mention this to Ting Wei cos the last time I went with her and the others to Orchard. I wasn't enthuse :X 

That had to be the first time I shopped at Orchard Road for clothes and I never complained >.<

Hahas we shopped at forever21 first to buy Ch'ng Yi's shirt. And went over to H&M.

Damn the prices.... (whatever words you like to use)

Lunch was fantastic. We ate at Seoul Garden hotpot, they offered student meals :) hahas made me feel like a secondary school student again with all those discounts.

The diner kept playing k-pop songs and Ch'ng Yi was damn ecstatic whenever Infinite songs came out. Hahas, although I'm not a k-pop fan but I can still chat with them about the topic.

Mostly what I talked about is TVXQ hahas, I'm sure u can guess y...

Drum roll.....

Ah Ma Choo.

Yeap its cos of her alright!!!! XD

Influencing me with them.

One topic I can remember most clearly is that I said Changmin (I hope i got his name spelling correct.) sings high pitch parts.

Hahas thanks to ah ma I know about this stuffs.

Being with them made me realise one thing that ah ma had said.

Being with your sec friends you can really connect to them unlike my poly friends. But I'm not comparing them. I love them the way they are despite the problems.

We even stopped midway squealing to watch the trailer for breaking dawn part 2 at one of the building's big screen.

Hahas we're so hyped up to watch the movie! XD

We went back to forever21 and shopped there for 3 hrs straight.

I bought a shirt for $29

HAHAS XD

My first purchase without my mum beside me xp

Cos I have no confidence in myself at all xp

I shld really ask Tingwei out to go shopping with me at Orchard :)

I wanna go back to forever21!!! XD

I love it.

Haiz kinda sian now.

Now reading books I had long forgotten.

:)

Who wanna go ice-skating with me?? ><

I'm back from Taiwan!!! XD

Gosh its an amazing country..

Beautiful scenery.

Good services.

Kinda bland foods though...

A shopping paradise.

HEEHEE

Most of the stuff they brought was mine xp

Teehee~~~

Clothes, shoes, souvenirs for my friends and an umbrella.

Hahas.

Went to so many places like the national palace museum.

The artifacts shown there are taken from China's forbidden palace.

The Chinese people back then shipped off the artifacts to Taiwan to prevent the war between the Japanese and Chinese from destroying them.

The jades are amazing.

My family and I went to Jiufen.

Its a small but bustling town located high up on the mountain.

Hahas its amazing.

There are many shops there.

The view of course it's amazing.

My hotel looked nice too.

Its interior its gold-ish ><

Very nice.

Of course We went to the famous Shilin Night Market.

Damn its cheap and very crowded there.

I brought most of my things there XD

The food... -.-

Except for the Mee Sua. Its very delicious.

Anyone going Taipei, must go shilin night market, its only a few MRT stops from Taipei.

Oh yea i sat on Taiwan's bullet train. Its got to be the most smoothest ride ever despite its speed.

When in the carriage, u don't feel anything.

But when you are outside especially when the bullet train passes ur stop...

Its super duper fast. I'm not exaggerating at all.

Hahas how are your holidays people? Fun?

Hi~

LOLS. Now the holidays n I'm not spending time wif my friends at all.

Ok! I decided after I come back from Taiwan.

I'm gonna call up Mushroom & the others :)

Let's go out!!!!

N if tmr can I maybe will ask Ting Wei out, hahas.

Yeap we're not close at all.

N it's gonna be awkward.

But i have to try my best to repair friendships I cut off in Sec Sch.

Like Ah Ma said, "You must spent time together to develop feelings which will lead to friendship."

I placed the strike to show which are my own words.

XD

Hahas, I owed her an apology, even if she does not know it.

Well, I'm a coward like I admitted to Ah Ma.

I'm scared of friendships because of these reasons like trying to repair friendships which might end up the other party being annoyed or hating you.

I hope I have the courage to do so.

I wanted to plan an outing that the whole 'clique' ( not sure I'm fit to use the word )

can go ice-skating or bowling.

But hahas.

Alas, I chickened out :(

It takes time, you know to build up my courage to mend broken friendships.

Like Ting Wei & Shi Min.

Oh yea, I owe Shi MIn an apology and an explanation too.

Don't hate me but yea,

I'm a coward.

Well I will try my best.

Although my best will not be enough for them.

So yea...

An advanced apology to them when I fail. (I don't have confidence in myself to know whether     

I will succeed or not) 

"I'm really sorry."

But you know...

Do you think it's worth their time for me to mend things with them?

If they want to have nothing to do with me, I can accept.

After all it was my fault despite the reasons / excuses (you may call it)

For Yilian I see hope...

Hope that we all can talk to each other like before we went on our separate paths :)

I no longer think it's a wishful thinking....

I see nothing despite the scene in front of me.

I feel out of here.

I hear yet nothing goes in. 

But tomorrow...

I see the whole scene in front of me.

Embracing the feelings it gave.

Hearing the laughter it produced.

Thanks for listening and giving you're thoughts about the whole thing.

I no longer feel out.

I begin to understand.

Felt better.

But I don't know..

I don't want to know.

.

.

.

Will I?

I don't know.

Don't feel like it.

Dark thoughts but it is reality.

Will I ever touch it?

Will I even let go of it?

Please.

Go away.

I don't want anymore.