Ah Ma, after reading ur blog. I hav too come to realise smth.
But i won't say it.
Its smth tat really will change ur mindset to the things around u.
After tat incident, I started to think bout wat had gone wrong.
I started to think tat, I kept myself deliberately ignorant.
I hoped tat by doing tat, at least I would feel nth.
But Orhji & they all changed it.
They stood by me no matter wat decision i chose. When they knew wat happened, they just giv me the listening ear & tat's all I'm asking for :) They r really my true friends, of cos the list is longer I hav true friends around me & now i realised it :)
Hahas u guys might be the one to break my long held belief tat friendships never last long.
So thx :)
However to me, apologies won't mean a thing. All the apologies won't mean a thing thus i had to do smth to earn the right to say I'm sry. Hahas straight to the point, I can't apologise to them, not now. It won't be fair to them. Neither to Sheryl. U girl, whatever happens or happened, past, present & future. I'll still stand by ur side as a friend, no matter wat flaws u hav. Truth hurts & it'll always do. So don't mind me when i blunt to u. Yes, i know saying tis will definitely worsened ties wif her, but would she rather hear me say a lie or the truth. To be honest, it wasn't stable in the 1st place, but despite tat i will always treasure it. No matter wat she thinks, I will still stand by her side if needed.
Choosing sides? Hahas no i won't. I won't wan be the one sitting on the fence though. So I'll only say smth when it is necessary.
So to sum up, it depends on wat they think. If they don't accept it, its ok. Apologies r not supposed to be taken for granted though let me warn u tat.
I promised Ah ma tat I'll try my best to win bac trust & to u all too. However, trust is like a mirror. U can fix it when it's broken but u still can see the cracks on the mirror. There's no tellin if i get bac trust & things will go bac to normal.
Hahas for ur info that phrase was from the music video of telephone by lady gaga & she added vulgarity in it ><
I guess its time to talk to Ch'ng Yi. As much as I'm mad at her for her sudden quietness after o lvl. She's still my friend, one of my best friends even. I won't abandon her & tat's wat friends r for :)
Diff ppl hav diff opinions thus do tell me urs ><
Im waiting!

Today was slack... Just walkin around aimlessly looking for things to do & got scolded by one of the aunties. xo
Hahas but the best part was my friend, Sun Ning. She came to workplace (her off day) wearing a black dress. Which looks cute on her. The whole time my eyes were wide open looking at her... She looks damn different from her normal looks.
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Hahas today was also very surprising. There's a temp guy same age as me at workplace. He saw me wearing the mayflower band camp tee. Then he asked: u from band?
Actually i kinda knew before he was from band. Cos yesterday i saw him wearing his band tee. N he's from Serangoon Garden Sec. A drum major & a TUBA player! :) Hahas ah ma ur comrade. Hahas forgot to ask him whether he noe Chuanjie oh well tmr ba. Oh yea i noe another friend (shit forgot her name xp) She's from the string ensemble cca & she plays cello. XD
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Hmm currently deciding should i buy howjin the penguin soft toy ( y i picked tat? Cos when i first saw it. I punched it xp Like the way i hit howjin whenever i see him) or the lava lamp... XD

Yea i'm bac. Work was tiring but interesting, especially wif the gossipings between the aunties & supervisors -.-...

Politics... -,- Man, they suck...

Haiz i got many injuries... Especially from the penknife i'm holding at work. Got a painful cut cos of it...

Now currently hooked on playing final fantasy dissiadia 012. Hahas now officially a final fantasy fan xp. I love their music it's one of the best ever composed!! Especially Aerith's theme & The price of freedom.

Oh yea Ah ma i bought the last book of the inheritance cycle, Eragon the series remember?

Matthew said it was nice & the fighting scene is damn surprising. The evil guy... Nah, if u wan read it for urself >< Oh yea hehe... Ur present xo

Yea i'm now totally in love wif hope from final fantasy 13.

His character development is awesome! From a 14 yr old kid who just got thrown into the world of l'cie & blah~, n to make things worse...

HE DOES NOT NOE HOW TO FIGHT...

& he's whiny & always afraid of things happening around him.

But let's not forget tat he saw wif his own eyes of the sight tat his mother fell to her death.

& his father is dunno wher -.- ( Lols tat father, can see y hope dislikes him)

But he changed.

He got one of the best summons in ff game (arguably) Alexander.

He finally had hope. (-.-Ironically, even though his namesake suggests tat but he has no hope.)

N look at him at ff13-2. He's totally hot!!!

N he became damn academic, leading an academy of the ruling government.

Woah~

XD

Damn happy~ Noctis too although he's wayyy hotter than Hope :)

Noctis's weapons & ability is so damn cool~ Stella better be a gd fighter >< Otherwise she does not deserve him at all.

My favourite guys in final fantasy: Cloud, Zack, Sephiroth, Noctis, Hope & Vaan.

Hahas y Sephiroth? Cos he killed Aerith :)

Although i love her theme but i don't like the person.

So wat she's kind nice cheerful pretty.... She's a traitor to Zack & a freakin annoying third party in Cloud & Tifa's relationship. Not tat they were in.

After looking through & talkin wif ah ma & yilian & sheryl.
I hav realised tat i miss band a lot. Alot.
I told ah ma tat, n she told me just come bac ah.
But my work clashes wif it. N honestly i keep oversleeping tis few days.
Haiz i miss howjin (ok its normal for a senior to miss a junior don get anything wrong just cos my statement seems wrong.) I miss Timlim & Jason too.
Yea like wat ah ma said. I would never probbaly tell howjin tat i'm proud of him. I will still criticise him & hahas hit him or smth. XD
Yea yea i noe i'm evil/diabolical to my junior. But thinking in long term its gd for him. He will keep on improving his playing & theory skills.
Whahahas. I miss mr tan a lot. Although blackmailing not much. Haiz how i want my xeno trombone... ><
Well when the nxt opportunity arrives i take it! :)

I miss BAND a lot. Trombone too.
Main reasons im not goin bac to sws is tat i don think i can play third trombone. Chiao Wen plays well. I feel damn... The whole time in mayflower secondary school i hav always being first (not counting at sec one yr although i went to first at tat yr), and although i said many times i don wan be in first. I love it. I absolutely love it. Although im got to be the lousiest first trombone in mayflower sec sch's his... Howjin is not cos he never gave up, but i did n wasted one yr emo-ing in band.
Third trombone part seems very different to me. N its a stranger...
I miss first trombone.
Suddenly i don wan to graduate from mf anymore. I miss playing trombone there.
But life goes on~
I unlike my friends hav not made my decision...
N i don think i will soon.